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High Places

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Habakkuk 3:19
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19 The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds’ feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]!

So what I am reflecting on today, is that when I depend on the Lord to be my strength, I will not be paralyzed by terrible things, but able to make spiritual progress. AND that in the kingdom of God, a “High” place, is a place of trouble, suffering, or responsibility? When I asked why, He showed me how loaded with opportunity those places are. The choices we make in the midst of suffering or trouble are the very defining moments that can propel us forward into our destinies, and get us Unstuck. Are you willing to go to “high” places? Are you willing to trust in the Lord’s strength to be able to make progress instead of pushing forward in only what your strength allows or just continue to stand still? Whew, so much to contemplate this day!

Say YES!

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Something so beautiful emerges out of the hardest storms we are called to weather. The Lord asked me to do one of the hardest things I have ever had to do about a year ago. This was an opportunity for obedience that was beyond my understanding. As I said yes to the Lord and walked forward in obedience, many of the steps were filled with tears, suffering, and much judgement. Even so, I chose to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, and move to where He was calling me.

A little more than a year later, I am in awe of how beautiful the budding fruit from this storm is. He asked me to do something hard for the people I love more than I can put into words, and God is working mightily in their lives as a result of many things, including my obedience. Amazingly though, I am watching God unfold incredible gifts in my own life and household that I would not be aligned with if I had chosen the easy road, the path of least resistance. There is tremendous blessing along the road of being in God’s will for your life.

I am not sharing this to boast about my obedience, because I can assure you I am in included in the scriptures when it says, “For ALL have sinned, and fallen short of the glory of God.” I am simply sharing this to encourage you. If the thing the Lord is asking you to do will be hard, painful, bigger than you can understand, know this- YOU DO NOT NEED TO UNDERSTAND. You simply need to know the truth of how loved you are, and that the One calling you is always FOR you, not against you, and is always WITH you. Nothing He calls you to is bigger than Himself, and if He is for you, you need not be concerned with whoever is against you.

It is important to know that our choices not only affect ourselves, but everyone we do life with, people we do not even realize are watching, and the generations to come. The only hope for our lives, our legacy, is to be a people, to rise up as The Body, by surrendering our will, and resolving that no matter what the call, the sacrifice, the level of obedience needed, the journey: WE ARE A PEOPLE WHO SAY YES TO GOD!

If we determine to live this way, REVIVAL will come!

Jesus, help us to be fully surrendered to You! Help us to have your heart and be willing to do whatever it takes so that every person will have every opportunity to see You and come to desire You by the example of our lives. Lord ,I so desire to say YES to everything you have created me for.Would you fill me supernaturally with the courage I need to be able to say YES! I want to see revival break out all over the world, teach me how to do my part! Oh Jesus we need more of You, more than ever before, start with me! I love You Jesus! In Your name I pray! Amen!

He does not disappoint!

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I have a desire in my heart. I get spoken to by someone who does not know this desire that the Lord wants to bring this forth. Faith is stirred up. Then I see the Lord doing a few things, boom, boom, boom. Confirmation. Hope is swelling. Then, WOW, this MUST be God because x,y, and z are all seeming to fall into place. I give testimony as to how God is moving, and BAM the momentum is halted and consequently I am left wondering why I ever allowed hope to take over the contentment I had with what I had.

Has this ever happened to you? You felt stirred up and excited about something the Lord began speaking to you about, only to be left wondering why He didn’t just leave you alone? I have to ask myself is what I was experiencing previously really contentment? Or was is complacency? Am I being honest with myself if what I thought I was content with was void of hope for a brighter future? Is it really being content or settling because I got tired of being disappointed? And if I was so tired of being disappointed- how did I get there? How did I arrive at the corner of “You have enough to be thankful for,” and “You probably can’t handle anymore than what you have to do already,” at such a young age.

I had to get real with the Lord and ask Him what was the purpose of allowing me to experience this cycle once again. He began to  remind me that my goal for the year is to move forward. I am moving forward by replacing destructive cycles with constructive cycles. This particular cycle is very destructive. This is the cycle that causes me to lose hope. When the enemy can steal our hope, our faith tends to diminish, and Hebrews 11:6 teaches us that without faith it is IMPOSSIBLE to please God. This is a VERY IMPORTANT LESSON TO LEARN!

I am beginning to see what the major problem is, when God speaks to me, I start trying to figure out how what He said could become possible. Now let me tell you He only spoke to the desire of my heart, but didn’t say as to how He was going to bring that forth. Yet in my desperate attempt to be in some sort of control I begin grasping onto anything I can find to see how this could work. When those theories I have crafted fall short, remember this is NOT what God had said, is when devastation and/or a deep disappointment collide with my once soaring hope and hope plummets out of the sky and lies on the ground slowly dying.

Here is how I can mature. I can mature by staying the course He has spoken to me about. I can mature by not running with vain imaginations and becoming fixed on how I think “it” will work out. I can mature by NOT putting my faith in circumstances, results, or outcomes. My God does not disappoint. He never leaves me and He always works everything together for my good. If that is not what I am experiencing, I am learning that means I am the one with a huge misunderstanding. I am learning that when He speaks to stir up my faith and remind me of the desires of my hearts, the one which maybe my little heart got weary in the waiting but He still cares about and still wants to bless me with, I can listen to what He has to say and not add to it a deadline. I can choose not be in a rush for that desire to manifest in my life. I can trust that if He is the one reminding me of something I tried to forget about because in my weariness I deemed it “impossible” that I do not need to take the reins and then try to make it happen. The One who reminded me, will take care of the details. I was reminded this week that my only focus needs to be, “Seek first the Kingdom of God….and all things will be added unto you.”

I have chosen this week that I can stop compartmentalizing contentment and hope. Somehow, as a coping tool or maybe a self-declared limit, I had determined I needed to choose one of the following, 1) being thankful for what I have or 2) hoping for more. But as a conclusion to the ride I have been on this week, I have determined something new. I am choosing to enjoy what I have on the way to where I am going. Already there is an elevated joy and peace. The limits are off and the manipulation of my future has lessened. There is expectancy for God to be God and joy in the waiting because I already have so much to enjoy. What an awesome God we serve. He loves me enough to undo every knot that is binding me when I was not aware I was being bound. He has yet again set me free. He is so worthy of praise.

Dream BIG- don’t settle, and enjoy the journey. This life we have is a gift to be fully enjoyed, not a deadline or rush just to arrive, and where are we hoping to arrive? I just want to see Jesus, and share Jesus, and love love love….and I already have everything I need to live in that reality-everything He chooses to bless me with beyond that is a surprise and I give thanks!

Vulnerable….always

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Interesting what you realize as your own strength, power, control are taken from you. For the last few weeks, I have been suffering terribly with fear. Fear is something I have overcome in the past, but all of a sudden I am plagued again. Here is the most interesting part…as the Lord has begun to speak to me about my future, and my hope has risen to really believe what He has will be, the fear has risen simultaneously.

For the last five years or so, I would declare how I totally trust in the Lord’s protection. I would have shared how I completely believe He has sent His angels to have charge over me and I am safe. It also would have been true that I am a pretty strong girl who can move quickly and deliberately when she has to. However, now that I am in a healing process, I have felt completely vulnerable. I have been ridden with fear, because if someone was coming after me, I am not as strong or as fast as I may need to be.

The reason this has caught me off guard is because until now, I had no clue that really in my heart there was a good portion of my belief that was in my own strength, my own power. Although I believed I was totally relying on God, I was also super comfortable with the idea of what I brought to the table. So when what I have to offer to my belief system has changed, I’m surprised by the outcome, and I’m thankful for this revelation.

This is also happening to me in another area of life. There is this one piece of my puzzle that I constantly am tempted to want to relax into trusting what the world can offer me, rather than look completely to God. EVERY TIME I begin down that road, starting to exhale in relief thinking that is being taken care of, that circumstance which I want to rely on is snatched from me. EVERY TIME it is jolting, frustrating, and also humbling. I feel like the Lord is saying, ” Daughter I love you too much to give you something, anything, that will make you feel comfortable, safe, provided for, or taken care of apart from me. I want you to totally and completely rely on me.” I must confess to you, friends, that this doesn’t always feel like love, sometimes it just feels hard. But I know that what I feel mostly isn’t what is true. The truth is, He does love me, and He is love, so His motive over me is ALWAYS love!

This is good. It is good for the hidden shallowness of my faith to be laid out plainly before me. It is good to know how vulnerable I am and always have been, and it always has been Him keeping me. It is good to realize how much faith I have put in things that are easily shaken, taken, or broken. For the path I am on, I will only be able to count on one thing, on One, on God. He is love. He has got me covered. He has it all worked out. This must be resolved now before I journey any deeper into my destiny.

When I asked Him to speak to me these were the scriptures He gave me. First one declaring His bigness, to put things in proper perspective for me:

Psalm 65:2-8 We all arrive at your doorstep sooner
or later, loaded with guilt,
Our sins too much for us—
but you get rid of them once and for all.
Blessed are the chosen! Blessed the guest
at home in your place!
We expect our fill of good things
in your house, your heavenly manse.
All your salvation wonders
are on display in your trophy room.
Earth-Tamer, Ocean-Pourer,
Mountain-Maker, Hill-Dresser,
Muzzler of sea storm and wave crash,
of mobs in noisy riot—
Far and wide they’ll come to a stop,
they’ll stare in awe, in wonder.
Dawn and dusk take turns
calling, “Come and worship.”

Now that I know how vulnerable I am, and yet I am loved, provided for, and protected by the Ocean-Pourer and the one who muzzles the sea storm, He says also:

Proverbs 27:1Don’t brashly announce what you’re going to do tomorrow;
you don’t know the first thing about tomorrow.

What an awesome reminder: STOP BEING BLINDED BY WHAT YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN and trust Me who KNOWS what is coming. Trust Me who is never caught off guard or suprised. Trust Me who is always FOR you and is working EVERYTHING together for your good. Nothing is too hard for Me!

Before I close with the song that I woke up meditating on tonight (which led to this posting), fIrst let me just ask you, what are you trusting in? What would you be devastated by losing? Your health? A job? A relationship? If you are feeling prompted, ask Him to show you if you are trusting in anything other than Him…..it is the time to know that HE really does provide our protection, our needs, our love. He gave it all FOR us, and He is still giving it all TO us! TRUST HIM! (and not for some outcome you have in mind, but for peace, joy, and love no matter what the circumstance)

“Always”

My foes are many, they rise against me
But I will hold my ground
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way
Troubles surround me, chaos abounding
My soul will rest in You
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
From You Lord, from You Lord

Strength will rise….

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The snow was cold as I was lying there awaiting rescue. Yes, I am that girl. I am the girl who on her first day of skiing, went too high, and fell too hard….( and though I wouldn’t recommend my choice , skiing is a blast!) I had two hours of private lessons with one of my best friends and I was actually doing really well on the green level which I had been taught how to do. The trouble came when I decided I should go above my level of instruction and ability and just “see” what happens…..

I learned that skiing is so similar to life. You see, when skiing, if you start to feel out of control and start trying to do everything in your power in the moment of panic to take control, you usually head really, really fast in the wrong direction. However, if in your moment of panic, you stay centered ,balanced and focused on doing what you have been instructed to do, you will quickly regain composure and though you still may not end up exactly where you wanted, you are safe and the recovery time is much quicker. Isn’t that just like life? I feel I really need to get this lesson. When things start spiraling out of my control,I can choose NOT to go with it. I can choose to stay centered an focused and let God be in control. Help me Lord to be able to live this in the moment of need!

One other major lesson I learned from this event was the scripture:

Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strengthand power….

I learned why strength rises when we WAIT upon the Lord. When we are WAITING we are learning, we are gaining experience, devotion, building muscle and ability, and then in HIS timing, when He says the wait is over, we move into the next thing. You see, I did not wait on the Lord. I self diagnosed, “I got this!” and I was wrong. So if we wait, we gain strength. Waiting is for us, because He loves us, and He is busy preparing us AND the very thing are moving into to be in the right condition in due season. If we move ahead of God, more than likely we will be ill-equipped and inexperienced, finding ourselves overwhelmed, lacking joy and peace, and filled with fear. Making choices in this condition will often leave us wounded.

So can I encourage you today, as I am reminded with every laborious step on a healing knee, to find JOY in the waiting because it is FOR you because He loves you. If you are already in over your head, by His doing or your own choice, stay centered in Christ, Keep your eyes focused on Him, and DO NOT try to take control of your sense of falling, HE has you completely covered.  Your fall won’t be as fast, hard and far, and your recovery will be much quicker if you let Him have the control!

P.S. even though I made a foolish choice, He is working it together for good…I wouldn’t have been able to write this post had I not learned this lesson…..rejoice even in the recovery from mistakes….there is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ!

Praise you Jesus!

Are we really protected by God?

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For a little while I have been wrestling out the topic of God’s Protection. I had a beloved friend share with me a horrible event that happened to her son. My heart filled with anxiety as I listened. “Wait, how could this happen?” I thought to myself, “She loves God, she prays for her children, I know she was agreeing in scripture over their lives……I HAVE A SON, could this happen to him too?” I was completely wrecked.My whole world had been thrown off axis. I needed answers.

I began my journey by asking the Lord to teach me. I had to put my heart back in place in the center of Truth. God is always Good. His NEVER breaks His promise. Nothing separates us from His love. He NEVER leaves us nor forsakes us. He answers the prayers of His children.

I started by talking to my mentor. She said to me, “So Jenna, do you pray to try to control the outcome? Did God not love Jesus because He allowed Him to suffer and die for us? Did God not protect the disciples when they each considered it an honor to be martyred for His Gospel of Peace? What do you do with the scriptures about sharing in His sufferings?”

I did NOT like this response! I did NOT like someone alluding it may be true that because I am in Christ doesn’t mean  harm will not befall me!!!! I did NOT want THIS bubble to get burst. I didn’t want to mature in this area of thinking…..NO NO NO! But God said, Yes, so I continued on.

I spoke with a dear friend of mine and she said, “Jenna I think the problem you are having is that you are trying to understand an Infinite God through finite eyes.” Through this powerful statement ( and I am sure the prayers of others asking God for my heart to be softened to learn His truth on the matter) I was able to remember something the Lord showed me not to very long ago.

I was contemplating His protection one day, as I was studying Psalm 91, and I was thanking Him for innumerable events I could specifically see His protection on my life in. As I finished He responded, ” You are welcome, Jenna, but they number of times Satan has asked to bring things into your life and I have said NO keep them far from her, is far greater than the protection you are aware of.”

As I remembered this, I also considered the truth that God can work everything together for our good. I began to allow myself to consider how we are in a world where sin exists and how everything that happens IS NOT God’s will. He gave us free will, and He will not violate that. However, because He is God He makes beautiful out of our ugly. And man, can it get ugly!

He reminded me of a dream I had not too long ago where I was being tortured in every way because of my profession of Christ and because I would not stop sharing the Love of God. As I was enduring every blow they gave to me, the strangest thing was happening. My joy and peace were untouched and the only thought I had over and over was, “I have been crucified with Christ, therefore I no longer live, but Jesus Christ now lives in me. You cannot take that away, no matter what you do to me.” As I meditated upon this dream, asking Him to reveal to me what I need to learn through it, He was showing me how His protection doesn’t mean we won’t face suffering, it means He will walk through it with us, and we can have Victory in Christ, in our hearts, spirits, and minds even through the trials. That is powerful! That is true protection!

I was allowing Him to mature my thinking, renew my mind, in this area, and one morning I finally said, ” Just show me in Your Word again, affirm to me again what is really true about your protection. Please continue to redefine for me what it means to be protected by You.”

He brought me to Psalm 73. It was remarkable, please read it for yourselves. What I got from it was there is no doubt that God is Good. So even when bad thing happen, God is good. The psalmist expressed, “I almost missed seeing His goodness because I was too busy looking in another direction.” I began to understand how this issue and fear of being protected from evil really isn’t where my focus should be. My focus should be, “Seek first the Kingdom of God…..and all things will be added unto me.” He continued to say, “Although I’ve been ignorant as an ox in Your Presence, I was STILL in Your Presence. And You led me gently, compassionately, and then You blessed me!” What an awesome God, although I was asking questions that were not even where I needed to worry about, He gently led me and blessed me anyway! The psalmist ends by saying, “God You are all I want in Heaven AND on Earth.” As I read that, I thought, “Could that really become the cry of my heart? He was enough, everything, all?” Everything besides having Him is truly icing on the cake?He alone is more than enough for me?

I’m not there yet friends, but that is the cry of my heart. I want Him to be everything. I want to whisper a surprised thanks for everything above the gift of having been saved through Christ. I want to recognize everything as a blessing, a not deserved, not promised blessing from the hand of a good and loving God. I want to get this so deeply rooted in my heart and spirit so that when the next storm comes I do not have a faith crisis and life crisis simultaneously. I am choosing daily to declare, “God is always good, and I am always loved.”

One last thing was when I was talking about this to my counselor, he brought me back to Genesis and how God’s original plan was NOT for us to be concerned with good and evil, but to only eat from the Tree of Life and enjoy Him and His creation. Praise God! I can do that! =)

We can count on Him. He has our back. He is Faithful. He is Trustworthy. He earned my trust on the cross, and nothing can change that. You are divinely protected my friend! It is the TRUTH!

Angry? Not me…..or am I?

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Recently the Lord has reminded me that anything I try to do in my own strength or power will end ugly.

I have started attending a group which makes you journal and the first week is probing inward about anger. I found that my anger (which I was highly unaware of it’s existence ) was mostly due to me constantly saying in my mind, “Let it go,”….”don’t worry about it,”….”just keep moving, it’s not a big deal.” The problem was, it was a lie! I wasn’t letting it go, not worrying about it, or moving on, I was actually stuffing it. Which means my tendency, always to my own great surprise, is to reach a point where, “I JUST CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE!”

I wasn’t able to let it go, although I was fully believing I had, because I was trying to do it in my own strength, by myself. After journaling the Lord has shown me that a much more beneficial road to take would look like this:

“Lord, thank you for giving me the emotion of anger so I can discern when something is wrong. Right now, something is wrong because I am feeling angry. Do You have a solution or a higher perspective or reality for what I am currently experiencing?”

This takes a lot more time and effort than being ruled by my emotion, but I am fixed on moving forward this year. I am partnering with Jesus no matter what it takes to replace my destructive cycles, like this one, with constructive cycles. I am willing to take the extra step for freedom!

The truth is, I cannot muster up enough strength consistently to hold in all the stuff that flies at any of us in just one day, not to mention, weeks, months, and years. I need God, I need Him in every NOW moment, and He is available and with me! What incredible Love! Lord, I fully admit my dependence on You. I need you, Lord, more than ever before! I love you Jesus! Amen!

Ephesians 4:26-32 MSG

26-27 Go ahead and be angry. You do well to be angry—but don’t use your anger as fuel for revenge. And don’t stay angry. Don’t go to bed angry. Don’t give the Devil that kind of foothold in your life.

28 Did you use to make ends meet by stealing? Well, no more! Get an honest job so that you can help others who can’t work.

29 Watch the way you talk. Let nothing foul or dirty come out of your mouth. Say only what helps, each word a gift.

30 Don’t grieve God. Don’t break his heart. His Holy Spirit, moving and breathing in you, is the most intimate part of your life, making you fit for himself. Don’t take such a gift for granted.

31-32 Make a clean break with all cutting, backbiting, profane talk. Be gentle with one another, sensitive. Forgive one another as quickly and thoroughly as God in Christ forgave you.

All about our Anchor

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Ahhh…..I love the Word of God! I am so blessed how His word is alive! I went into my email to find something I will be sharing with you all shortly and the Lord brought  me back to an email I wrote almost exactly a year ago. In His perfect timing, He has brought this very thing up in the forefront of my thoughts again, however I had no recollection of writing this email. This is living water! I pray you drink deep and find hope. I did/am.
I wanted to share with you a scripture that I have been meditating upon and researching for greater wisdom! You know the Lord speaks to me about my life in reference to a ship, and the other day He began to highlight to me that a ship always needs an anchor. He is our anchor, and though the storms may rage, He will KEEP us anchored to Him….
Before I share the scripture, I wanted to share a little of what I have recently learned about anchors. Anchors were originally ROCKS!!!!! He is our Rock and our salvation! Hallelujah! Anchors have a “crown” Praise KING Jesus!
Anchors that are not strong enough to hold, will be ripped up and the boat will sink in the storm. He is our ever-present help in time of need! He will never leave us nor forsake us! When we are slipping we cry out and He reaches out and pulls us up. If God is our anchor, we can NEVER sink! Hallelujah!
Also, the word “HOPE” can mean a cord, or rope, attached to the Lord. A dear friend of mine helped me to envision this as an umbilical cord from Heaven to “this piece of Earth” ( meaning my life, your life) feeding me my daily nutrients vital for sustaining life in Christ, and I can also envision this as an anchor which is so totally wrapped in Christ, who is my ROCK, that it could never be pulled out or up. There is such thing as “temporary” anchors, and “permanent” anchors. May I just encourage us  that we most definitely have a PERMANENT ANCHOR! Hallelujah!
Here is the scripture in a few versions! May the Lord bless you and keep you! I am praying for you! Your ship will not wander to and fro for you are securely anchored by the Rock, King Jesus!!!!!!!!!!

Hebrews 6:19

Amplified Bible (AMP)

19[Now] we have this [hope] as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul [it cannot slip and it cannot break down under whoever steps out upon it–a hope] that reaches farther and enters into [the very certainty of the Presence] within the veil,

Hebrews 6:19

The Message (MSG)
  18-20We who have run for our very lives to God have every reason to grab the promised hope with both hands and never let go. It’s an unbreakable spiritual lifeline, reaching past all appearances right to the very presence of God where Jesus, running on ahead of us, has taken up his permanent post as high priest for us, in the order of Melchizedek.

Hebrews 6:19

J.B. Phillips New Testament (PHILLIPS)
 16-20 Among men it is customary to swear by something greater than themselves. And if a statement is confirmed by an oath, that is the end of all quibbling. So in this matter, God, wishing to show beyond doubt that his plan was unchangeable, confirmed it with an oath. So that by two utterly immutable things, the word of God and the oath of God, who cannot lie, we who are refugees from this dying world might have a source of strength, and might grasp the hope that he holds out to us. This hope we hold as the utterly reliable anchor for our souls, fixed in the very certainty of God himself in Heaven, where Jesus has already entered on our behalf, having become, as we have seen, “High Priest for ever after the order of Melchizedek”.

Laying our burdens down

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So I had an amazing experience with The Lord and just thought I’d share it in case you wanted to give it a shot.
As I was spending time with Him, I had worship music on. The words to the song were, ” and I lay every burden down, at the foot of the cross,” next thing I know, I find myself drawing the cross, on a hill, and above it writing words that describe what I receive from His sacrifice and who He is to me. Then I proceeded to to write down all of the things that were burdening me. After doing that, it was like I knew they were no longer in my hands, but in the hands of the only One who could work them together for good. After this exchange, I was able to hear and focus on what He wanted to share with me, to encourage me in, and to lead me to pray about. It was powerful for me, and I just thought it may be for you too! Be blessed!

I’m HOPEFULLY devoted to You!

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So I am reading through the book of Luke with some amazing women and yesterday as I read Luke chapter 1, the Lord really spoke to me. As I was emailing them with what He brought out for me, He made it clear that this was a word to be shared with all. So, here goes…..why don’t you read Luke chapter 1 and then continue reading. (If you don’t have a bible handy, I LOVE biblegateway.com)

So, as I was reading I took notice of Zachariah and Elizabeth. The Lord had said He was going to give them a child. The bible states that they were both very old. Elizabeth had been unable to have a child, she even called this a ‘disgrace’.

25 “This is the Lord’s doing. He has shown his favor to me by removing my disgrace among other people.”

As I thought about this couple, who,” were both righteous before God, blameless in their observance of all the Lord’s commandments and regulations,” and had their dreams crushed time and time again. I can just feel the pain of month after month, no pregnancy. Prayers left unanswered. I can feel the sting of constant disappointment and heartbreak. And yet, they still continued to serve the Lord wholeheartedly.

The Lord began to show me how this can apply to all of us. Have you ever felt disappointed because the desire of your heart was not given to you in the time frame you were hoping for? Have you ever been heartbroken by seemingly unanswered prayers? Have you ever given up hope on a dream because it seemed the time had past, the circumstances would never be right again, you had missed your window of opportunity, or maybe feel you are just too plain old to dream a little dream?

Well, what was the Lord doing for this devoted couple? He so longed to give them the desires of their heart. I know He was hurt watching their suffering, all the while knowing He had such an incredible honor and blessing for them. He sent them a child, in their old age, who prepared the way for the Messiah, Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior! WOW! AMAZING!

So what I believe the Lord is saying through this awesome example is, He could have given them the desire of their heart on their timing, but He loved them too much to allow them to miss His best for their lives. He chose to answer their prayer in a MUCH BIGGER way than they could have ever hoped for. He chose to bless them in such a supernatural way that everyone took notice and PRAISED GOD for this miracle, realizing that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD. He chose to use their blessing not only to bless them, but all of us for all generations.

EPHESIANS 3:20(NIV)

 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us

I believe what God is saying is that if He makes us wait, it is because the blessing we receive, the answer to our prayers, the giving of the desires of our heart, will be so much grander, and have such a greater purpose than we could ever hope for or imagine, that it is worth the wait!

Also, we can learn from their devotion. They were called righteous, and it was noted they kept the Lord’s commandments. Can you imagine if the one thing you have asked God for, you felt He had asked you to surrender, and having such gratitude and reverence for WHO GOD IS, over who He seemingly wasn’t, and still serving Him with all of your heart? This is a big concept for me. Their example of being righteous, and serving the Lord, despite their hurt, confusion, and sorrow, has definitely caused me to ask the Lord to help me mature, so that this will be my choice in the midst of the storms I will face in life. I believe the Lord could use them for this honor and miracle because of their obedience, their love, and their wholehearted devotion. This lifestyle has become a desire of my heart.

So I guess what I have been asking myself, I will ask you too. Do you really believe, “37 For nothing is impossible with God?” Are we living in relationship with who God is, or with who we have known Him not to be? Are we remaining faithful through our hurts, heartbreak, and let downs?

Friend, we do not have the details of how they remained devoted, but I know the people in the bible are not fictional characters, they are real people just like you and I. I believe they were not perfect, in fact righteousness is a gift from Jesus, meaning: right with God, and that only comes from Jesus. I believe they were able to be real with God,expressing their deepest wounds and finding rest and peace above their pain in His love. This is not a message of :Suck it up and serve anyway with a smile on your face.” This is a message of: take your broken heart to Jesus, asking Him to make a beautiful mosaic out of it, more creative and passionate than the original. Run to Him, not from Him. I believe this is the only way we can remain devoted through our struggles. Lay down your need to understand, recognize He is God and we are not, TRUST HIM, but be real about where it hurts. It is in this vulnerable posture that His love will begin the healing process, and once you have been there and received from this place, you will NEVER want to be anywhere else. This is where true devotion, true righteousness, true deep and passionate intimacy with the Lord begins and never ends. Will you go there? I hope so.

Lord Jesus! Thank you for such awesome love. Thank you for being our healer. Thank you for knowing us so intimately that you can restore everything we have lost in the battle. Thank you for caring about us so passionately, that you won’t give us everything, to ensure we can be available to receive Your best. You are the best. All I want is You! I love You Lord. I need You Lord! It is in Jesus’ name I pray. Amen!